March 9, 2003

• Saturday, March 8, 2003
  ©Stormy Stevens, 2003

  
  

  I shut myself down emotionally
  not letting them in--No cracks
  
  I smiled and played the part
  I was expected--and I didn't look back
  
  My nephew and new bride
  so happy and jittery too
  
  I hugged them both warmly
  and told them "I love you."
  
  My mother said hello to me
  I said a cordial hello back
  
  That's the only words I spoke to her
  Love for her, I completely lack
  
  My brother tried to talk to me
  about computers and such
  
  I configured his so it would work for him
  I really didn't have to do much.
  
  My sister-in-law's family were there
  and I have no beef with them
  
  I held their babies and talked to all
  I think, with them, the better I blend.
  
  My sister-in-law strained for me
  to somehow "take her back"
  
  Maybe someday soon I will
  My love for her doesn't really lack
  
  My oldest boy's girlfriend came
  and she was quiet as a mouse
  
  I know exactly how she felt
  like we didn't belong in that house.
  
  We finally got to leave after
  staying a "fair" amount of time
  
  I didn't waste a minute with my coat
  when at two O'Clock the hour did chime

  
  

  Once in the car, all six of us in the car
  I only looked back once and I didn't shed a tear
  
  I knew now I'd not be poisoned anymore
  not by them, not by my family, not by fear
  
  We came home and the girlfriend stayed
  and it all just felt so nice
  
  I smiled to myself because I had
  just come through hell and I did it quite nice
  
  I smiled even more because no one knew
  what exactly was going on inside
  
  My husband had the slightest clue
  and maybe I'll tell him sometime.

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