December 3, 2002

• I think I'm becoming a little more stable. Not completely, but some. I'm not as down as I was but I've not had any hypomanic or full blown manic periods either and to be quite honest, I would really welcome either of those right now.

  
  

  I have been, I guess, more or less as "stable" as to be expected for now. The doc did up my Wellbutrin and I'm still on all the other meds so maybe, just maybe we have come across the right cocktail for now. That would be sooooooooooo nice.

  
  

  Agoraphobia is getting worse though. It takes a LOT out of me if I have to go out somewhere and normally, the ONLY time I go out at all now is to go to my pdoc appointments by way of medical transport, which I hate, but it's not as bad as it could be since I know the couple that run it and who do the driving. That makes it somewhat easier for me to go with them. But I still hate it.

  
  

  Not being able to post here really bothered me, so I wrote in a journal here at home. I really wrote a lot, but I doubt that I will ever get the gumption to transcribe it here. I did some posting on my BP community as well. I worked on some poetry and a couple of short stories so I am regaining my concentration to an extent.

  
  

  One of my best friends sent me a book by Kay Jamison called "Touched with Fire" and its about Bipolar and Artists and how the two intertwine. It's fasinating and I highly recommend it! Its taking me awhile to read due to concentration problems for me, but what I have read so far is amazing!

  
  

  Well, I know I should write more and I want to, I'm just really tired today. Maybe I will post something longer and more creative tomorrow.

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