October 14, 2002

• Wow, what a roller coaster of a day! Mixed state all day long!

  
  

  I was agitated when I got up this morning and knew I had no business whatsoever going out of the house, but I did. I needed pop and cigarettes and didn't want to wait for D to get up and go get them. Big mistake. By the time I got back home I felt like popping the store's cashier's head off her body and that everyone on the road must have gotten their licenses at a K-Mart blue light special! Road rage in conjunction with my unstable mood, switching back and forth between the two personalities... it just was not good.

  
  

  I came home and took my meds. Thank the Gods and Goddesses for my meds! I was still agitated all day. I even stayed away from this computer! I watched "Panic Room" (Yeah, like that was good for me to watch) and I tried to read, but I can't concentrate long enough to read and that pisses me off to no end because I LOVE to read! I collect books, am an avid reader and now this damned disease is interferring with that too. It takes away everything!

  
  

  The BP support group that I started is starting to bloom. I'm starting to get calls. I have got to get busy on the meeting place that I am setting up for that. I'm glad I can help these people.

  
  

  I'm not going to write much right now. I can't concentrate. I've set here for an hour now trying to write this. More soon, promise.

  • 9:59 pm
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