September 5, 2002

• Q&A Entry and Personal Entry...

  
  

  
  

  
  
  
  
  
  

  I know this question might be stupid .. but isn't it hard having a family with kids and also dealing with your situation of BP?

  Posted 9/4/2002 at 12:43 am by liloXwaity Lilo, that wasn't a stupid question at all. In fact, its a very good question! It is, at times, extremely hard dealing with family things while going through a cycle of depression, mania or mixed cycles. Its not only hard for me, but very hard on my loved ones. It does make me feel very quilty because they don't deserve to have to go through the hell that I sometimes put them through without meaning to. My husband and children are *used to* me being the way I am. Another thing I am guilty about because they don't deserve to have to be *used to* it all. During the times that I am cycling so bad that all I can do is sleep, my husband takes care of everything. He cooks, cleans, takes care of the kids and the animals... the whole nine yards along with working his full time job. My children help out with the cleaning and all that since they are old enough to do so. I have all sons, aged 16, 13 and soon to be 12 years old. My almost 12 year old also has BP as well as ADHD and sometimes its a real battle field around here when we start to cycle at the same time. My husband, I must mention, is my hero. He has saved me from myself too many times to count. He has lifted me up out of that depression abyss and everything else. I am sooooo fortunate to have him in my life. I don't know what I would do without him. He took me to my appointment on Tuesday after working a 12 hour shift. I knew he was tired, but he insisted that he personally take me because he knows how I am and he wanted to make sure I got there without having a panic attack or anything like that. My first appointment, by the way, went very well. I really like my new pdoc and he has me coming in to see him every two weeks for now. That's a good thing, because I know that I need that kind of intense therapy at this time. He told me to continue my Neurontin, even though he isn't a huge supporter of it, as well as my Buspar. He is going to slowly wean me off of both. He added Lamictal and Zyprexa to my medication cocktail. He said after we get me stablized on the meds, then we would work on all my other issues. Issues I didn't even realize I had until they came out while talking with him for two hours! He also gave me a mood chart to do this month. I don't mind doing it, but I'm scared that I will forget to fill it out each day. So far, I've done pretty well with it, but then I only started doing it Tuesday. Well folks, I know this is a bit of a ramble so I will close it for now. I hope everyone is well and happy and that y'all are getting good use of the articles I've been posting here. If there is ANYTHING you want to ask or know about, let me know in the comments areas so that I can either look up the information for you and post it here or answer any personal questions that you may have. Remember, the only dumb question is the one not asked. Love to all.

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